I think too much

image from fgr 

Sometimes I wonder if I'm wasting my time, and the "fresh start" that 2012 is supposed to have brought, since all I've been doing for the past few weeks really can be described as "nothing" - but hey, I'm on holiday. Surely a little time wastin' is okay. In other words, I am clearly not one of those amazing people who are proactive and involved in ten billion projects at once and get things done now (I prefer later) while still staying on top of everything. My life is pretty boring in that sense. I also really suck. But that's okay, because I'm motived enough now to change. It sounds really corny and I kind of want to delete that last sentence or this whole entire post, because I know my family read this sometimes and they're just going to promote me to Queen of Lame now, but I really am serious.

I want to be like those amazing people, who are just so damn annoyingly/amazingly proactive and focused. Okay, maybe just a little bit like them for now. Baby steps! I want to stop being jealous and awed and be my version of that person; to be able to look back on the past year and feel proud of myself for what I've managed to accomplish. As my wise older sister put it, what's stopping me? What's the difference between me and them? The first thing: effort. So yeah, I'm motived to change. This applies to my personal style too, in the sense that I'm starting to change that "oh I want to dress like that/have that one day" mentality to "oh I want to dress like that now". Dream wardrobe, come to me!! 

... um so anyway, I'm also kind of obsessed with that A.P.C "Fashion is for Losers" tee right now. It just makes me laugh. Don't know if I'd actually wear it though! 

xx